Last Monday night, after enjoying a box of chocolates with wine in it, I woke up in the middle of the night with tinging and hissing sound in my ear. I thought, this is great, once in your lifetime you get lucky to indulge yourselves with foods of the gods, the gods sent you Medusa right away. I thought the sound was going to go by the morning but it didn’t. By Wednesday I had to see an EENT who pronounced my outer ear, my nose, my throat and my eyes to be in perfect condition. He said all I need is to take B vitamins which I did. By Friday morning the sound was already getting into my nerves so I consulted Google. I was surprised there is a name for what I was suffering – tinnitus. The more I read about tinnitus, the more frightened I became. There is no cure and I have to live with it. By Saturday morning, I certified myself to be suffering from depression. I slept almost half the day. By Sunday I feel like I’m going nuts with the tinging and hissing sound.
Yesterday I went to see another EENT. After the tests, he said I got Meniere’s disease. He gave me Ginkgo Biloba tablets for two weeks and have to continue the B complex vitamins. The tinnitus is just one of the disease’s symptom. When I googled menniers, I learned that menniers doesn’t have a cure, cause is unknown, the tinnitus won’t go away, and that my hearing will progressively deteriorate.
I know I can choose how to react to all these. My choice now is to be angry. I am angry, very angry, very, very angry.